Sadness

Fairy Tale?

2009-02-14T01:45:00.001+08:00

Why would people choose to be witches when they can be princesses? Why are they in the same fairy tale but have different fates? Why do people only remember the princesses?

What happens if you preserve to the end and found out that you took the wrong path?

Decisions are so important in life. Anything and everything that happens to you depends on the decision you had made earlier on.

But fate affects everything in life too! So if I am the witch in fairy tales, should I blame myself for taking and persevering the path which is considered as immoral? Or should I blame my ill fate that a prince has to come and rescue the princess?

Think it will take me quite a while to fully understand all of this.. Don’t know why i wrote this also.. Hope it sounded reasonable, although it contained only a fraction of what i had intended to write as i just don’t know how to continue! (It’s on the relationship between fate, influence, perception, decisions and perseverance..)

Hope i study soon!

2009-02-04T19:18:00.001+08:00

OMG !! i found a programme that can blog without logging in to blogger!!

So this post will only be a testing post.. and since i have already started typing, i will just continue to type.. There’s so many things that i have to do today.. which includes:

typing of the blaw tut for last week and sending it to everyone in the class
sending of the photos (which should have been done like ages ago cuz ppl kept hounding me for it.. but i still didn’t transfer)
conb slides and send it to elaine by 10pm
script for the conb slides
print blaw ca2 questions and all the articles with it
do the ALL the questions (if not carrie will be darn sad again)

And of course, firstly, i need to take my dinner first.. To prevent me from sleeping and taking my dinner at 1am again..

“People change over the years” So did I

please fill in the punctuation marks..

for me it’s So, did I??

真情滿天下 07 明傑德慧跳舞片段

2008-07-06T17:39:00.001+08:00

2008-06-14T00:27:00.006+08:00

灿烂的人生，灰暗的世界..

shocking and terrifying things happening around me.. and they are all unpredictable and unstoppable..

firstly, family politics.. not the drama kind where the whole family are quarreling and fighting over inheritance.. but it's the matter of a pair of children together with their mother not taking proper care of the head of the family, their father, her husband, their closest family member..

and then not only that.. they discredited all the other family members who took proper care of their dearest family member by scolding them meddlesome?? is that a right thing to do??

and that man is my uncle.. my biggest uncle - the first male of the family.. in my eyes, he was a strict but jovial man. He would crack jokes upon seeing my grandmother and my aunties.. but when he meant business, not even a fly dare to fool with him..

at the start of the year, he was entered to hospital because of some virus that would "eat/decompose" human flesh.. and from the day he entered hospital, i hardly get to see my father.. cuz he would go to the hospital early in the morning, go for work in the afternoon, and then stay in the hospital till the wee hours.. This applies to all my other aunties and uncles.. they even forgo their weekend mahjong sessions at my house.. (my house was super quiet as a result) and my third auntie spends a lot of time and money cooking food, tonics for my uncle to eat.. all the ginseng, bird nest and stuff like that.. really a lot of money.. when i went to visit my uncle, his leg was put into a cast and he was quite restricted to his actions as a result.. (it was the leg that got inflammed) and crowding around him were 7 or 8 people excluding me and my sister.. and it was already like 12 am!! still so much people at such a late timing shows the way how my uncles and aunties were concerned over him..

anyone would be touched by this right?? but my cousins (1 girl and 1 boy.. both were over 20 years old) weren't.. they even slammed the table and scolded all these aunties and uncles, who painstakingly spend time and effort to look after their father, kaypoks?!?! and during the 2 times i visited my uncle, i didn't even see one of my cousin there.. and from what i have heard, they were even away on a holiday to genting leaving my uncle all alone in the house on chinese new year.. (he was in and out of hospital) and when he has visitors, he has to climb out of bed to his wheelchair and open the door for them all by himself?? thats just terrible.. there are a lot more stuff that i can say but seriously, i don't have the heart to type anymore..

he's your father for your goodness sake.. how can you forget about him?? it's alright that you don't take care of him but do not discredit others who take care of him?? especially when they are all your elders!!

i've always thought that our family was warm enough.. but this shows me that i'm wrong.. i've always respected all elders and cousins older than me.. i thought everyone in the family does the same too.. but what more can i say..

secondly, my grandfather's brother's wife (mother's side) passed away yesterday morning.. she passed away while sleeping.. it may sound very far away from me and not even my business.. but our families are really quite close.. she's just like my grandmother.. she's good at cooking, she's good at a lot and a lot of things..

and when my mother broke the news to me, i was like why?? it's all so sudden. my mother told me that the day before, they had gone to the hospital for check-up and everything was okay.. but the next day, she couldn't wake up.. maybe that's the best way to pass away.. i really felt like crying but swallowed back all the tears as i really didn't want my mother to see me crying.. so i only cried now..

thirdly, another death of somebody of somebody important to me..and so i cried again.. but i hope that somebody remains strong and cheerful.. remember, you are the best!!

脆弱人生的泪水似乎不代表着什么..

但希望这流下的眼泪能终究照出彩虹..

2008-06-11T15:24:00.009+08:00

(picture edited from mediacorp's website!!)

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!

wang ren fu and wang shao wei are coming to singapore to be the judges for the 唯我独尊 competition!! omg!! i'm now super super happy!! ahaha.. no words can be used to describe how i'm feeling now.. a bit sad that not the whole 5566 coming.. but wang ren fu is here jiu hao le.. but they having performance sia.. hope it's still okay lah.. maybe they will be dancing?? because the items that the contestants will be performing are dances??and the singing part can just leave to wu deng hui.. aha.. no matter what, i'm still DAMN HAPPY!!

think mediacorp really like 5566 a lot..all the events also invite them.. maybe they have the effect that mediacorp wants.. and that's very good!! ahaha.. feel like shouting out now but my ah ma will think i'm crazy.. so better don't..

everyone!! please tune in to channel U on the 15th of june, this Sunday, at 7.30pm for the finals of 唯我独尊!!
(it'll also be my first time watching this show.. aha..)

I'M HAPPY!!

2008-06-11T01:52:00.002+08:00

omg.. having serious headache now.. must be my sis concert.. it was a ermm super draggy concert which made my head spins even before its interval.. and there was this choir alumni singing wu yue tian.. their high notes really can kill me.. i almost didn't cover my ears with my hands.. terrible.. haha.. but other than the high notes it was really okay lah.. still can reach..

and my sis co was okay..except that vry few ppl and erhu ying bu zhun and er hu got one guy wearing white socks.. haha..

and i saw wen jun there.. super surprised man.. he was supporting his frens there.. and his frens were the girls singing the wu yue tian.. aha..

oh yeah.. so i still have done nothing at all.. of course except for my SSM proj!! M&V WAN SHUI!!

so after the concert, i watched wan quan yu le as usual.. thought today was just as bo liao as other days but found something CUTE!!

they super cute right?? omg.. if only my another half was exactly as wang ren fu.. but it is impossible.. aha.. and wang ren fu wear specs super cute lah.. omg.. omg.. omg.. CUTE!!

okay lah.. have to do something like watching videos later.. haha..

2008-06-09T18:12:00.002+08:00

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omg.. i'm so dumb.. but whatever lah.. so now jia ying is in some island on a beach building sandcastles while sheena is in taiwan watching television in her hotel room.. and i'm in my house blogging and helping firefox to enter the Guinness World Record.. dumb dumb dumb..

and it's been a week of holidays.. and seriously i have done nothing at all.. okay lah.. i did some stuff like having a E2 class gathering where only 18 people turned up instead of 25.. project meetings and erm a family gathering.. but not work.. not at all..

nonono.. i must think of all the MST and all the various projects!!

oh yah.. speaking of projects and MST, i made a nightmare yesterday.. dreamt that when i got back my result slip, all my modules got Cs.. damn kong bu.. i really got frightened by it.. den i also dreamt that jia ying got all As.. weird right.. why would i dream of jia ying.. aha..

just called my sister and asked her whether she is eating dinner at home cuz i'm going to buy dinner at the coffeeshop near my house soon.. she said she's at causewaypoint and eating dinner there.. then she asked me to buy a can of coke for her cuz she wan to drink coke when she gets back.. so lame can.. causewaypoint is like so big and she can't buy the can of coke there?? she retorted by saying cuz she wants to drink when she's at home.. but she still can buy when she's returning home?? there's 7-11 everywhere!! seriously, i don't understand her warped reasoning.. if anyone understands, please explain it to me.. haiz..

I WILL STUDY AFTER DINNER!

2008-06-02T14:41:00.003+08:00

just finished watching 命中注定我爱你.. omg.. this episode is really a killer.. 眼泪杀手.. really cried till very kua zhang lor.. from the beginning of the episode jiu cry till the end.. omg..

this is the parts i think i cried the hardest.. especially when xin yi's crying.. think both of them acted quite well.. but that anna cannot make it lah.. wahaha..

chipmunk's version of the theme song.. damn cute.. wahaha.. i'm crazy over this show le!!

2008-06-01T17:48:00.002+08:00

omg.. It's so damn damn damn dumb.. I hate the sun!! I hate my skin!!

wondering what am i shouting and screaming about?? It's all because i'm sunburnt. And the reason for being sunburnt?? Sitting under the sun for 1 and a half hours doing nothing.. SO DUMB RIGHT?? i mean if i was like exercising under the sun and got sun burnt it's still okay lah.. but then i was really doing nothing except for talking lah.. dumb dumb dumb..

okay.. so this is a stupid sunday.. hope i will revise seriously for the upcoming MSTs during the holidays.. we still have to meet up for projects during the 3 week break!!
quoting from jia ying," holidays aren't holidays!!"

2008-05-22T23:47:00.001+08:00

this is a video i've found..
明天会更好!!

2008-05-18T17:22:00.002+08:00

okay.. quite a busy week.. and ponned quite a few tutorials and lectures.. first would be monday's MR tutorial and FMA lecture.. and that was because i was having serious headache.. but still went to marina square with natalie for SSM discussion.. didn't pon anything on tuesday and wednesday.. but had activities right after school.. tuesday would be going to city hall to get the ndstt for jia ying and after that, eating at sun plaza with gelare with hui ling, addison, wen jun, ming sheng and jin chao.. and then on wednesday would be going to orchard with my sis to buy her dining etiqutte dress.. and she ended up buying at this fashion after we had walked all the way from heerens to centrepoint.. actually planned to go to co practice.. but firstly, i dun feel like going cuz all the newbies are not there yet and secondly, i don't know how to go to the co room.. damn noob can.. wahaha..

ponned thursday's gem cuz i seriously couldn't wake up.. i was shocked when i woke up can.. cuz i told myself i cannot pon gems anymore as i had already ponned once before.. but juz couldn't woke up.. and after school on thursday, went to a mosque introduced by natalie's friend in EUNOS!! haha.. that's damn far away for me lah.. but then its still quite okay.. how big is singapore?? and then on friday, i ponned QA's lecture and tutorial.. haiz.. that's because i didn't do my tutorial and i didn't want to bring my notes there as i'm going to bring my camp stuff there.. haha.. but i did went for MR lecture..

and then after school, CO CAMP.. i was really scared and nervous can.. cuz i practically knew only one person there.. and that is john, the games ic for the camp.. he couldn't possibly talk to me all the time right?? and so for the first night i was really damn sad and depressed.. kept smsing myrin, maggie and jia ying.. haha.. but after the night it was okay le.. i was quite okay with the girls who had stayed on..

and then on the second day, it was even better.. separated into groups to play stupid games.. it was quite of fun lah.. one of the games played was you are given a word or action and you are not supposed to say or do them.. the first word gave to me was foodcourt.. and then someone asked me which school i came from and after replying school of business she asked me where would i usually eat.. foodcourt 6 was my answer.. and then i got forfeited..

the next word gave to me was poly.. this one was even more stupid.. out of no reason, one of the guys there asked the whole group to say what is SPCO.. i just murmured Singapore Polytechnic and stopped.. after the whole group had finished saying, a girl got caught.. her word was orchestra.. and then somebody pointed at me and said i also kana.. the person sitting next to me said she didn't hear me say anything.. but some said they did.. so a guy came to ask me whether i have said anything not.. i replied can i say no?? of cuz cannot.. so i just replied i only said singapore poly.. [i thought the word was polytechnic] and then everybody laughed.. lol.. damn stupid can..

after this game i went home le.. haha.. a bit weird and bad lah.. but then jiu suan le lah.. haha.. on the way to the mrt station, i realised that i was damn sticky.. so i went to bath at the toilets at the field area[couldn't remember what's that supposed to be called] wanted to go to moberly.. but the night before, there's a group of people discussing about the stories in moberly.. so decided not to go there just in case.. haha.. saw maggie sitting there.. she was the station master for a game.. and i automatically asked her to take care of my bag.. haha..

watched the campers played the caterpillar game before leaving.. just as i was leaving, i did something damn stupid.. cuz my hair was stuck under the strap of my sling bag.. and then i turned my head and adjusted my bag and hair while walking.. and then just as i turned around i banged into the metal steel rod that supports the stadium.. [it's just like what happened in most shows..] and then, scratch or crack lines appeared on my specs.. it was really damn paiseh can.. omg.. duno whether the people running on the tracks saw that or not.. luckily my specs are thick enuff.. if not really will break de..

okay.. so that's the whole week itenary..

PS:I'M NOT GOING TO HAVE ANY HEADACHES ANYMORE!!
PPS:I'M NOT GOING TO PON ANYTHING ANYMORE!!

2008-05-12T12:59:00.002+08:00

omg.. i'm dying of pain sooner or later.. can i just change my whole head?? I feel damn bad to skip school just because of headaches.. but then my head is really spinning.. watch tv also cannot.. really don't understand why i'm so weak.. i'm just a worthless bum..

yup.. so i've skipped school again.. but i will still have to meet with natalie to finish up SSM proj.. and then, tml we will be starting on UCCD's proj.. and then on thurs, it will be briefing on MR proj.. DAMN A LOT OF PROJS!! and there's still the normal tutorials.. poly life is really not simple as it seems.. maybe it's only for business courses.. maybe..

2008-05-08T19:04:00.002+08:00

urgh.. i'm so fed-up.. i'm so irritated.. i'm so PEK CHEK!! I'M SO #%#**#(@%$()*%^iu@^!d^@*?!$%#@
why can't you just eat whatever that's there for you?? i really do hate you at times.. yes.. HATE.. not that i'm being rude or unmannered.. but i really can't stand it anymore.. on the verge of breaking.. okay.. i've been saying this for as long as i can remember..
and you!! why just can't you help me?!?! i'm like doing rituals after rituals after rituals..
wth.. my headache's coming back again.. really have to learn how to live normally..

and tomorrow, i'm going to donate my blood with jia ying and natalie.. a bit scared now.. it's been ages since i last got an injection or even see a needle.. hope i don't freak out or even cry tomorrow.. it's going to be damn paiseh can.. wahaha.. oh yah.. and i seriously don't know what's my blood type.. what if i'm not allowed to donate my blood just because of this reason?? hope not..

feeling sleepy at weird timings nowadays.. just like now..
no.. i can't sleep.. i still need to do QA tutorial.. sianzed..

就是要開運--好high的一家XD

2008-05-07T22:55:00.001+08:00

what a cute family.. wahaha..

2008-05-07T21:20:00.002+08:00

okay.. today is a stupid day.. didn't report for school.. reason: serious headache.. the reason for headache?? i shall elaborate on this now..

yesterday was Tuesday.. and i slept at 2.3oam and woke up at 6.00 am.. and then had lessons and tutorials from 8am to 6am.. and then after eating dinner, i couldn't resist the temptation of 命中注定我爱你 and 季芹@康熙来了.. so i ended up doing my fma tutorial only at 12 plus.. but then i only did the part up till journal entries for the first question.. and then i fell asleep accidentally.. it was around 1am plus.. and then i woke up at 4.35am in shock.. rushed against time to chiong fma tutorial.. can't expect the consequences of not finishing my tutorial.. finally at around 5.45am, i finished up till question 4.. throughout the 1 hour plus, i felt as if somebody used chopsticks to poke the 2 sides of my forehead.. so i slept for a while hoping it would go away.. woke up at 6.30am.. and my head really started spinning.. okay lah.. not that exaggerated.. but the pain just got worse.. thought by sleeping for a few more minutes would be better.. so i slept for 10 more minutes.. it was wishful thinking on my part.. the pain remained.. stoned while lying in bed.. finally at 7.10am, i decided not to go to school.. smsed jia ying and went back to sleep..

okay.. so this is the whole process of me not going to school.. wahaha..

oh yah.. and i finally bought a camera.. canon ixus.. "camel" colour.. don't know why it's called camel colour.. i think it's more of bronze or gold colour.. wahaha.. so i gave up my crumpler bag and a lot of shit things.. i'm declared broke now..

ps: hope i will continue blogging.. a bit sian nowadays.. haha..

Britain's Got Talent Connie age 6 , Simon Amazed

2008-04-28T19:11:00.001+08:00

2008-04-21T21:35:00.002+08:00

okay okay okay.. i'm blogging now.. aha.. and the post on 5566's mv was blogged from youtube.. super cool.. can blog directly from youtube now.. as a result, there will be tons of videos on my blog.. ahhaa.. and jia ying, it was short becuase it's only a video post.. wahaha..

so.. for the previous month which i have stopped blogging, quite a lot of things happened.. there is of course buying ming sheng's birthday present at new urban male, celebrating ming sheng's birthday at fish and co, ending of work, start of school, Ahmad Ibrahim's Parcel concert, going to cafe cartel to eat a super thick and filling pork ribs.. could only remember these few things..

and now it's already the second week of school..

the class is quite okay i guess.. but seriously, i felt a bit of stress inside there.. everyone's like answering the tutor with perfect answer and i have none in my mind.. okay.. we had only 1 actual tutorial which is marketing research..

and i think alice tang is alright.. she's strict.. but she's okay.. haha.. and the rest are really alright.. so maybe this sem might be easier as time may pass faster.. of course, there's always an exception.. krishna of course.. his lectures are really lullabies!! the time seems to take forever and ever and ever to reach the end.. SUPER SIANZED!!

talk about something interesting.. i'm currently playing pokemon diamond now.. omg.. so if u do see me playing my ds, i would be playing pokemon.. and i'm like so afraid people sitting me beside the mrt would notice the BIG pokeballs sign and snigger at me in their heart.. it's kind of childish right?? but i don't care.. just feel like playing.. wahaha.. and i also play nitendogs.. only at home.. its a very good thing.. if not i would be taling to the ds all the way in school.. and my dog name is LALA!! easy to remember right?? LALA..

and while on the way from sb to the mrt station, me and jiaying saw someone carrying a LV's bag and LV's laptop case.. it was super kua zhang okay.. i seriously don't know why does LV appeals to some youngsters.. jia ying said maybe it's a fake.. but if it's a fake, she wouldn't have brought it out as we don't really see LVs in school.. so she wasn't affected by peer pressure to buy LVs.. so it's definitely real stuff.. it's only my opinion.. haha..

and on the platform of dover mrt station, there were 3 malay school girls standing beside me.. they were giggling and shouting that the ipod nano (the long version) was running low on battery.. whats there to shout about.. lol.. and as i board the mrt, i heard one of the girls shouting!! she was also pointing to the underneath of the train.. her 2 friends were also shocked.. HER IPOD NANO DROPPED DOWN THERE!! it was so ke lian lah.. but i just board the train cuz there really was nothing i could do.. as the doors of the mrt closed, i could see the girl's hands covering her face.. maybe she was crying.. super sad can.. hope it's not crushed..

after i recovered from the shock(a bit kua zhang lah..) the mrt stopped at clementi.. and then a group of 4 lower sec guys came in.. they were discussing about colour blindness and eye deficiency.. one guy said he thought that colour blind meant that the person could only see black and white.. another said that he has colour blindness where he can't differentiate dark colours.. and another replied him that he can't differentiate between his mother's shit and his shit.. it was so stupid and funny can.. i really had to bear my laughter as it is so weird laughing in the middle of their conversation.. luckily it reached jurong east mrt station at that moment..

GOOD NEWS!! 季芹 is currently 6-months old.. and it's a boy.. CONGRATULATIONS!!
5566 also participate in the singing of the olympic song..
王仁甫 currently hosts a variety show in china..
孫協志 would be acting a a taiwanese drama where he would be acting against 陳昭榮.. he will be speaking hokkien in this show.. aha..
王紹偉 changes his name to 王少偉..

okay thats all for today.. hope it wouldn't be another month when i update my blog again.. wahaha..

5566 - Wo De Bei Hou 我的背後 MV

2008-04-21T17:18:00.001+08:00

OMG!! THEIR MV CAME OUT!!

but it isn't of a very good quality.. nvm.. as long as there's something for it.. i'm happy enough.. wahaha..

2008-03-22T17:13:00.003+08:00

was going through the classified out of boredom yesterday.. finding what kind of jobs i can get with a business administration diploma.. and then, all i found was executive assistant - helping in compilations of sales reports, maintenance and stuff like that.. and all the job required 2 years of relevant working experience.. its so stupid.. how do people have 2 years of working experience when they just graduate?? funny requirement.. and omg.. the job sounds so boring.. super super de sian.. thats not my purpose of studying business admin man.. but, i also don't know my reason of studying business admin.. maybe it was because i wanted to open a shop myself.. but how can i open without working first?? haiz.. also needed the money from work to enter university..

should have studied more for O levels and get into some tourism related courses.. or even something to do with the media.. since i like to watch television programmes so much.. it might even be more interesting to be a helper in a tv studio.. of course i'm talking about working in a taiwan tv studio.. aha.. okay.. these are all illusions from watching too much television programmes..

but i've really thought of living in taiwan.. it would be a great place to live in.. can watch endless of shows, have so much to eat and so many free concerts.. but i just can't stand their political environment.. it seems super messy when compared to singapore.. those ministers can just fight in parliment while debating over issues.. super kua zhang one.. i'm hallucinating again.. aha..

suan le.. since i'm already into the 2nd year of this course, i'll just do my best.. there's no point regretting at this moment of time.. the milk was already spilt..

and i'm alone at home now.. what a peaceful saturday.. tomorrow going to 扫墓.. think its a day earlier.. it's good in this way too.. leaving at only 8am.. this is so much earlier compared to 3am for previous years.. wahaha..

2008-03-21T03:46:00.004+08:00

You are 73% Scorpio

How Scorpio Are You?

You Are 43% Real

You're pretty real with people, but you can't help hiding a good part of yourself.

You're not truly happy with who you are at times... and believe it or not, it shows.

Try not to hide parts of your life from the people who matter to you.

Your friends and family are probably a lot more accepting than you realize!

How Real Are You?

Your Heart is Blue and Orange

Your heart is bright and brilliant.

You are knowledgeable, wise, and confident.

You bring dynamism and sparkle to relationships.

You know how to keep your partner hanging on your every word.

What Are the Colors of Your Heart?

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are highly energetic. You are a passionate, intense, vigorous person.

You are somewhat outgoing, but you're not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical.

You are very detail oriented and meticulous. You are a careful thinker and a true intellectual.

You need a lot of space in your life, and it's easy for you to feel stifled. You avoid commitment and responsibility whenever you can.

You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.

You are a poor communicator. No one really knows exactly what you're getting at.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

You Are Very Normal

You scored 75% normal on this quiz

You are normal in practically every way. Yes, you're average.

But average definitely doesn't boring. You just fit in well with the mainstream.

Why You Are Normal:

You prefer fiction to non fiction

You prefer a good meal to a good nap

You prefer your friends to your family

When you're in a car, you prefer to be the driver

You rather be screwed over than screw someone else over

What's Normal About You... And What's Not?

You Aren't In the Best Of Moods

While you aren't full on depressed, things aren't going your way.

You may be hurt, angry, frustrated... or all three.

Not to worry - you'll be feeling fine in no time.

What Mood Are You In?

Your Worry Factor is 80%

The amount you worry is definitely borderline unhealthy.

Even when things are going well, you find yourself fixating on the negatives.

Try to remember the times you've been able to let your worries go.

If you can do that again, you'll be much happier!

Do You Worry Too Much?

doing these stupid quizzes all because of sheena.. and sheena did all these because of lay ting.. so it's all lay's fault.. ahah.. the handwriting one is damn true.. for me at least.. haha..

2008-03-20T23:25:00.003+08:00

a series of unfortunate happenings recently.. i will only mention about what happened to me..

but first i need to provide some background information.. i'm those type of person who cries easily.. even the slightest thing can make me cry.. (okay.. think those who are close to me will know..)

so it was the wee hours of 20th of march, wednesday.. was telling sheena that i don't wish to go for work.. cuz it was only me and wei keong reporting for work.. jia ying and myrin were having forced leave as iras was simply overstaffed.. aha.. but i still psycho myself to report for work as i really wish to perservere on something..

and so i slept at 2,3 plus and then woke up at 6.30am.. and as usual, i was half an hour early for work.. i was a bit nervous, just like the first day of work.. cuz the people i was cooked with (jia ying and myrin) wasn't around.. but i told myself at least i appeared for work..

for the first hour or so, i did simple stuff.. but after the first hour, i was to do the job of rovering people.. even though the job was managable in the morning, but my mind was drifting away.. i was really very very moody.. already on the verge of crying.. but i told myself i was working and stopped the tears from coming out.. i asked people for help at the slightest matter.. i wasn't very confident of the decisions i've made.. and i was thinking to myself, "maybe it's the time of the month.." cuz there will be some days of the month where i will just be moody for no reason.. (should be able to tell what am i refering to.. its quite obvious already.. aha..)

and then, the big thing happened.. asked taxpayer A to fill up a form.. and he questioned me in a very very loud voice," why am i supposed to fill up this form?? can't u just fill it up for me??"
"but i still need your particulars.."
"what for you need my particulars??"

at this moment, taxpayer B asked me questions regarding some issues i've told him earlier on.. of course, i answered his questions.. didn't think of the first-come-first basis principle.. it was a normal reaction to answer when questioned.. and then taxpayer A was unhappy.. he retorted in his loud voice, " attend to my matter first before attending to others!!#$@!$@#%"

and then taxpayer B was unhappy.. and then they started to quarrel over who asked me first.. i was right in the middle of them.. at that moment i was thinking of who did i attended first.. i just can't remember.. so i just answered taxpayer B's queries and ignored taxpayer A's complaints to make taxpayer B go away to stop this heated argument..

after taxpayer B left, taxpayer A was still whining.. and insisted on not filling up his particulars.. he started to scold the fact that i was only a student and still a trainee at that time.. and then daniel (not really sure whether that's his name) came to talk to him.. he still insisted that he don't want to fill up the forms.. so daniel said something back to him.. he damn zai lah.. dare to say such stuff.. (don't want to mention what he said to protect his identity.. aha..)

and then all this while i can already feel the tears forcing their way out.. "control!! i must control!!"

taxpayer A finally left.. then daniel said in a stern voice," you must not be afraid of them.. if not they will just eat you up.." he said.. and then my tears just swell up.. through my blurred vision, i could see that he was a bit shocked.. kept asking me whether i'm okay.. of course i'm not.. then i 哽咽地 say," sorry.. i need to go to the toilet." my tears was bursting out already.. everyone i walked past just started at me.. (it's exactly the same as monday when i rushed to the toilet with a bleeding nose)

spent 10 minutes or so in the toilet.. couldn't stop crying man.. kept thinking of how useless i was.. after i made the tears to stop flowing out, i forced a vague smile on my face and stepped out of the toilet cubicle.. super paiseh.. i was then told it was time for my lunch..

lunch time with wei keong was a bit on the quiet side.. had to rack my brains for topics.. aha..

after lunch, daniel came up to me and said sorry that he was sorry for being so harsh.. but then it wasn't his fault at all.. i asked him to 不要再説了.. cuz once he mention the incident, the tears jiu feel like falling..

work after lunch was even worse.. i felt like a protected animal.. everyone was like so afraid of me crying again.. kept telling me that some taxpayers are like that.. of course i knew that they had kind intentions.. but then at the mention of it, i really really feel like crying agn..

mad a lot of mistakes.. 1 same tax officer came out thrice to tell my superior that i had made mistakes.. at that time i really felt like crying again.. i felt so useless.. i felt so worthless.. wanted to go off early but it was hard for me to open my mouth..

couldn't stop thinking of everything in the mrt.. and a tear drop just fall.. had to yawn to disguise the tear as a tear of tiredness.. while walking home, it was raining.. just the perfect weather for me.. crying in the rain.. now i finally know what that meant..

while crossing the road, i actually hoped that i would accidentally be knocked by a car or something.. or i walk around the neighbourhood for an hour and maybe will get peunomia or something like that.. of course, i didn't do that.. just had intentions..

cried for an hour at home.. kept thinking of how useless i was.. how worthless i was.. how untalented i was.. from the day i was born, maybe i was destined to excel at nothing.. i was

this is a super long post.. (hope i never say out any confidential information..) also, this is a post after i've calmed down.. at some parts of this post, flashblacks appeared in my mind and the tears just fall.. so i really was destined to be useless and crying for everything..

2008-03-16T23:56:00.002+08:00

oh yeah.. resuming work tomorrow.. actually i feel like staying and rotting at home.. but because of $$, i have to return there.. luckily the people there are all so kind.. haha..

and a lot of pimples started to appear on my forehead.. really a lot man.. hope they will disappear soon.. i don't really get along well with them..

must sleep soon.. don't wanna be late for work.. (actually i'm always 20 minutes early for work.. wahaha..)

2008-03-16T03:37:00.008+08:00

saw jiaying's post.. so i'll try to blog in chinese too.. wahaha..

再过几个月, 我就18岁了.

18岁. 说大不大. 说小也不怎么小.

假如我活在古代, 我可能早已结婚生子了. 就算是现在, 也早已谈过恋爱了吧.

可是我却什么也没有. 最接近 "恋爱" 这两个字也不过就只是沉浸在偶像剧的情节里罢了.

很可悲吧. 就算是那么一丁点的暧昧也没有.

说实话, 我真得很怕会孤独一辈子. 像我这样的人也会有人爱吗?

事实胜于雄辩. 就是不会有.

看了一个节目. 里面有一位艺人叫大家要勇敢说出爱. 说得容易. 做起来还真是难.

问我为什么?

当然是因为害怕.

害怕它的准备功夫. 害怕它的过程. 更害怕它的后果.

勇敢告白的后果? 可能我们就变很尴尬. 可能我们就开始躲来躲去. 可能我们连朋友都做不成了.

所以我想我这辈子都不会勇敢地先说出那三个字.

但我真的渴望爱情.

渴望有人会对我说出那神圣的三个字.

渴望有一个人能让我这杯淡而无味的白开水增加一点味道.

有人说爱情是酸的.

有人说爱情是甜的.

有人说爱情是苦的.

有人说爱情是辣的.

但对于我来说, 爱情是淡的...

2008-03-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

oh yeah.. so it was the first day of work today.. seriously, i'm overloaded.. plus the fact that i only slept like 3 hours yesterday.. from 12.30am to 3.30am.. suddenly woke up and couldn't sleep after that..

and although today was supposed to be training, i still find it quite tedious.. super super super a lot and a lot of information.. hope i will perservere on and not quit halfway.. hope..

AND I REALLY DO HATE MAKING DECISIONS!! why let me decide and think of all these again and again, year after year?? doing the same processes each important day.. can i just take a break and treat nothing happen?? haiz.. i think it has became a habit of mine.. but i really do hate it.. for the past few months, i have been doing less of these.. i think.. so it isn't me all the time.. there are still a few as irritated as me..

okae.. enough of all these disheartening talk..
tomorrow will be a new day and i need to read more information about my work now.. don't want to be scolded on the second day of work..

2008-03-10T21:33:00.002+08:00

Hihi Byebye 完整版MV

this mv damn cute can.. haha.. actually she really can sing.. but then don't know why the record company always market her as someone acting cute.. in all her albums, only the 主打 is act cute.. the rest of her album's songs are really quite nice.. and so i'm thinking of buying her album..but then don't know whether i wana buy her jing xuan ji or her 飘飘 album.. or i just save my moneyand don't buy.. haha..

2008-03-10T20:44:00.003+08:00

omg!! that stupid ah pek made me check the SAS to understand what modules will i be learning.. and i really got frightened by it man..

2A Core

Marketing Research
Quantitative Analysis
Selling & Sales Management
Understanding Cross Cultural Diversity
Financial & Management Accounting
Report Writing And Presentation Skills

2B Core

Financial Management
Consumer Behaviour
Electronic Commerce Management
Human Resource Management
Principles of Supply Chain Management
Business Law

3A Core

Investment Analysis & Finance
Services Marketing
Marketing Communications
Global Business environment
Business Development

3B Core

Business To Business Marketing
Marketing Management And Information Technology
Law And Ethics Relating To Retail And Marketing
Business Development
Communication Skills For Business

and there's still ITP.. omg.. don't know how much the modules of human resource management differ from mine.. MYRIN!! if you see this post, can post your modules also?? quite curious man.. haha..

Yup.. and so i'm in DBA/FT/2A/10.. and 11 of DBA 02 are in there.. so half of the new class would be familiar faces.. don't know whether that's a good or bad thing.. aha.. just hope my classmates will all accept me.

starting work tomorrow.. IRAS.. a bit nervous, a bit scared and a bit excited.. finally working at a office after so working at various places.. auntie's gift shop, analysing taxis for LTA, factory work and of course NTUC homemart.. all these don't really need much of a brain.. so hope i am ready for tomorrow's challenge.. haha..

加油!!

2008-03-08T21:58:00.001+08:00

命中注定我愛妳preview

think this show would be a hit once it's released.. aha..

2008-03-04T06:34:00.003+08:00

in remembrance of 沈殿霞

1945 - 2008

当你见到天上星星

可有想想起我

当你记起当年我的脸

曾为你更比星星笑得多

当你记起当年往事

你又会如何

当你记到当年我的脸

曾为你在心中照耀过

我像那银河星星

让你默默爱过让

那悠悠光辉

为你打开痛楚

当你见到光明星星

请你想想起我

当你见到星河璨烂

求你在心中记住我

2008-03-03T18:40:00.004+08:00

haiz.. been crying quite a lot these few days.. not because i'm sad or what.. but because of the shows and movies i had been watching..

the first was cj7.. finally watched it on friday with sheena, jackie and lay ting.. finally.. the movie was damn touching at the end lah.. especially for the part when 七仔 saved 周星馳's life and made it's own battery flat as a result.. my tears just burst out from my eyes for that part..

next was Death Note Spin Off - L Change The World.. watched it yesterday with hui ling, qi xia, eugene and wei zhi.. and the ending also super touching.. there was one scene which made the tears already swelled up in my eyes to fall.. and another which made tears blast out of my eyes..(haha.. a bit kua zhang) but i sort of forgot which scenes.. i could only remembered i was crying like mad for the last 20 minutes or so.. keep using my jacket to wipe my tears.. oh yah.. speaking of jacket..

whle watching this movie, there was also the preview of 第一誡.. and i was clever enough to use it as a screen shield for me.. wahaha.. (so, don't laugh at me anymore le carrie..) manage to catch a few glimpse of the movie.. quite curious also lah.. aha.. but i concentrated on the actors and not other things.. maybe i'll watch the movie too..

and L was super super cute!! it's a must-watch man!!

and ytd, we celebrated my grandmother's birthday.. the one living with me.. it was quite a pathetic one.. about 20 people went to the coffee shop to eat zhi char only.. and the reason was that my first uncle is now in hospital again.. his already injured leg got infected.. didn't know the exact details of his condition.. cuz whenever i probe my father with this question, he just say quite serious only.. but from what i hear, my auntie told me that the bone of his leg could already be seen.. when i visitied him when he was admitted to hospital for the first time, the muscles could be seen.. and now, it was the bone.. and of course, the more i think, the more i cry.. although i'm not really that cooked with him, but he's still my uncle after all.. hope he recovers soon..

so maybe it's a good thing my grandmother have not yet seen my uncle.. she only knows he's in hospital.. our family didn't want to worry her.. cuz there was once whereby my 4th uncle fainted while working.. and then my 4th auntie called my house to tell me to inform my parents.. but they weren't in.. so she told me to inform my grandmother.. contacted my mother at first instance.. but she didn't pick up her phone.. (totally forgot to call my father) so i informed my grandmother.. she was damn worried lah.. started calling everyone cuz she don't know the details.. and in the end, i was reprimanded for not telling my aunties first.. so, i finally know why not to let my grandmother know..

to say the truth.. this year's celebration was quite pathetic.. compared to previous years, we always planned a month or so before hand.. where to celebrate.. where to find 7 tables to compromise all of our family.. and also the cake.. for the past 3 years, 26 grandchildren chipped in to buy the birthday cake.. and the cousins living in sembawang would be the ones choosing the design.. (only 4 girls attended to this matter.. the others couldn't be bothered.. aha) it was a real headache man.. went to so many cake stores.. and having to collect $$ from 26 people when they appear for the celebration wasn't a mean feat.. the mouth just couldn't open.. so i'm quite pleased to find out i nonid to do all this again for this year..

that's not all for my teary session..

and then, it was the special reports of the death of 沈殿霞 on channel 54's primetime news..it lasted for an hour.. 9pm to 10pm.. and i think i've cried for 45 minutes after minus-ing the commercials.. i just can't stand people crying.. especially when the screen shows her daughter's crying face.. the speech by 曾志偉 was also a tears-blaster..

decided to change my newly changed blog song 眼淚 to 明星.. the favourite song by 沈殿霞..
also wish my uncle's leg would recover soon!!

2008-02-28T03:17:00.003+08:00

why do i suddenly feel sad?
why do i suddenly feel dejected?
why do i suddenly feel depressed?
why do i suddenly feel miserable?
why do i suddenly feel guilty?
why do i suddenly feel as if i've killed someone?

2008-02-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

oh yeah.. have been awake from since 3am.. and that's because i'm extremely tired from yesterday.. slping at 7.30am and then waking up at 10.30 am.. so after the visit to jia ying's house, i slept at 9.30pm after eating my dinner.. and who knows.. myrin actually guessed correctly that i will wake up in the middle of the night.. and i did.. and i couldn't sleep after that.. damn jia lat..

so i saw sheena's message saying that the results were out.. went to check my email and ta..da!! saw the preview of the message.. a bit scared when clicking on the show full message button.. cuz i knew i had not really studied hard enough for this semester.. with all the ponning of lectures & tutorials and not doing of tutorials.. actually i was most afraid of accounts.. cuz i only did the first 2 accounts tutorials for the second semester.. and also, i'm afraid my attendance didn't reached 75%.. (myrin just told me that if attendance didn't reach 75%, i would be barred from examinations.. didn't know of this fact so i was damn scared.. wahaha..) on the whole i didn't expect any good results..

but when i look at my results, i really got stunned man..

Code - Credit - Grade - Module

ba207z - 8 - A - Principles of Accounting

ba150z - 6 - A - Statistics for Business

ms001a - 2 - A - Calendars and Astronomy

ba0289 - 6 - Dist - Fundamental of Marketing

ba208z - 8 - B - Economics

ms1517 - 3 - B+ - ITAB2

sp0701 - 2 - B+ - Character Development

lc0718 - 2 - C+ - Critical Reasoning Skills

Semester GPA: 3.635
Cumulative GPA: 3.61
*************************

it was like OH MY GOD!! thought my eyes had seen wrongly or something like that.. cuz it was nearing 4am already.. the distinction for marketing was really unepxected man.. think OSIM helped me a lot.. wahaha.. also didn't expect "A"s for both accounts and statistics.. cuz for the last tests, i had not done well at all.. done quite badly for itab2 and econs.. haiz.. the itab must be because of the frontpage.. and the econs is definitely because i nv study well enough.. cuz at least the i still had done 2 tutorials for accts.. but for econs, i think only 1 bah.. or even none.. haha.. also i had totally forgotten about the automatic stabilisers for the exam paper.. that costs me 10 marks man.. my participation marks made things worse.. haiz.. but the "C+" for CRS was expected though.. haha.. think i could have done better.. if only i ... ...

so, after regaining my composure, i started to analyse the different module codes.. why can't they just include the names of the modules inside the email?? they just know how to make life difficult for the students only.. wahaha..
(*ps: the above results are after analysing.. haha..)

decided to go back to sleep.. while lying on the bed, i started to think of all possibilities.. maybe the email was sent wrongly.. so decided to wait till the results are posted on SAS before i have any reaction.. and time passes by damn quickly.. in a wink of an eye, it was 6.30 am already.. and i'm still wide awake.. so i decided not to sleep and be awake for the whole day.. haha.. went to buy mac breakfast at 8am..

and then, it was 10.30am!! quickly logged in to SAS and check the results.. and yeah!! the results weren't sent wrongly!! and this time round, they had the names of the modules next to it.. weird isn't it?? wasted my time analysing the code before hand.. wahaha..

and carrie!! you are a super super freak!! HOW CAN YOU GET A GPA OF 3.919!! with 5"A"s and 1 distinction?? i think you definitely live in mars.. you have been deceiving us for the past 11 months.. wahaha..

after getting the results, it made me consider even more seriously whether i should enter university.. but whatever the decision i'm going to make, i really must be serious for year2.. damn serious.. no ponning of lectures (although i think is 100% impossible.. cuz i will be at least pon a lecture or 2) and tutorials.. and making sure all tutorials are done beforehand..

kinda a bit regretted to put marketing as first choice.. think it will be super super stressed.. and it needs a lot of communication with one another.. i think i totally sucks at communicating with people.. i will just slowly fade away.. haha.. of course not close friends.. but acquaintances.. but its damn weird.. cuz i find it perfectly okay while talking to customers while working.. but to those friends who are not really that close, i tend to close myself up.. can somebody tell me why?? haha..

2008-02-22T00:25:00.002+08:00

chinese new year is over!! i finally can open up all my red packets and have money for once.. omg!! hope money will keep rolling in.. haha..

so i've watched kung fu dunk with my sister on tuesday.. the movie is average lah.. to me only.. my sister thinks it quite nice..

and on wednesday, i'm supposed to meet with jia ying and sheena.. 2pm @ harbourfront mrt station.. cuz we are watching the 2.25pm juno show at vivo.. also to visit lay ting at thai express and shun bian eat dinner.. but in the end, i woke up at 2.15pm when jia ying called me.. can use 驚醒 to describe man.. totally scared off by wang ren fu's voice.. for the first time.. haha.. and the reason for me being so late was that i slept at 7am in the morning as i had met up with hui ling at sembawang mrt station to collect the watch she had helped me ordered.. kinda abit regretted meeting her at such an early time cuz i forgotted that i had an appointment at 2pm.. actually i felt sleepy at 4am.. but i had to meet with hui ling.. so i tried damn hard to keep myself awake.. (it wasn't that hard.. just adhering to my normal time-table.. ahah..) and while waiting for her, saw fiona and jin chao.. jin chao's face a bit black.. don't know why..

so, we had no choice but to watch the 7.15 show.. it was already 4 when i reached vivocity.. we shopped for a while and then we were bored.. we were all damn hungry.. so we took a bite at banquet.. 3 people sharing a plate of hokkien mee.. haha.. and coincidentally met lay ting and her friend at banquet.. after eating, we went to gv to buy the tickets.. something unexpected happened!! the gv people told us that only the front 2 rows are left.. so in order not to strain our necks, we decided to watch the 9.15 show.. all of a sudden, we have even more time left.. omg..

so after playing some stupid games in challenger, we went to eat at thai express.. suppposed to order the same thing as last time when we went there with everyone else.. but we got 2 items wrong.. rice noodles became tang hooon.. and chicken became stuffed chicken wings.. only the green curry, kang kong and white rice were correct.. haha.. each person paid about $14 for it.. (couldn't remember the actual price.. lol)

spent a bit of time in the toilet.. taking pictures.. haha.. and also, we've discovered something damn damn amazing.. SHEENA'S bag can perform magic!! cuz the handle of the cloth bag holding the pair of jeans she bought was interlinked with the handle of her own bag!! we couldn't seperate the two of them no matter how we twist and turn them.. but at the end, with our wits, we finally seperate the 2 of them.. i tink everyone was staring at us cuz we were laughing damn loud..

and den with nothing to do and still an hour left to the movie, we went to the "pool" at the top of vivo.. we sat on a bench and started discussing about the future.. what is the ideal age to get married, so on and so forth.. but we don't even have the other half.. not to even say get married or something.. and then we were saying that maybe we wouldn't get married at all.. so jia ying said we are really sad.. single and desperate.. haha..

and i had just finished the 16th episode of 欢喜来斗阵.. shao wei had some problems with xiao qiao (they are husband and wife) because of some communication problems.. hai.. de 恶作剧2吻 also.. so maybe remaining single for the rest of the life might not be a really bad idea.. you don't need to change yourself for anyone.. no one needs to change themself for you.. and quarrels won't happen.. and you don't need to report to anyone else when you do anything at any day, any place and any time.. isn't that wonderful?? haha.. okae.. i'm just comforting myself..

so after that desperate talk, we finally went to see our movie.. we reached there exactly at 9.15.. only a step into the theatre, the gv people chased us out.. the reason?? they have yet to clean up the place.. damn stupid lor.. so we waited for another 15 minutes before entering.. don't know whether is fate or what.. we sat in between 2 couples.. not only one.. it was 2.. and then the preview of some ghost story appeared.. at first i saw 余文乐's face.. he was shuai!! but the next moment, sheena or jia ying was saying it's a horror movie.. i immediately use the pack of cheezels to cover my face.. the trailer was super super long lah.. keep hearing people shouting and screaming.. but sheena was laughing.. at me of course.. jia ying also.. cuz they wanted to eat the cheezels but i was holding it to hide my eyes from seeing that disgusted scene.. they were also laughing at the fact that why didn't i use my jacket to cover my eyes instead.. i can only say it was my natural reaction.. ahah..

at 9.30++ the movie finally started.. it had no subtitles!! they were speaking at the speed of lightning, had the american accent and were using jargons.. how you expect three girls who don't really watch english shows to understand at all?? okay lah.. not really that exaggerated.. but there were some parts which i totally don't understand.. so maybe because of this i find it a bit boring.. and i totally don't think it was a nc16 movie.. there were really just a bit of sexual scenes.. a bit.. maybe the only disgusted part was where the group of guys was running in the super short, super thin yellow shorts.. that scene was describing how the private parts of the guys moved while they were running through that shorts.. this was the only scene that deserved the movie to be rated nc 16.. okae enough of the movie..

and then we went home at 11.30.. was damn scared that the last train had already left.. but thankfully, we were just in time.. bought a mac chicken for my mother.. went online and watched videos and finally fall asleep at 6.30am.. haha..

hope i will get to normal before i go for work.. shall be sleeping soon.. and i hope those who are single will find their partners soon!! (including me of course..)

2008-02-17T23:58:00.004+08:00

oh yeah.. my internet connection finally got fixed by the singnet people.. so, i can finally blog.. and watch videos of course.. but during the time when i couldn't use the internet, i did not waste my time.. i've finally finished watching 樱野三加一.. and 许孟哲 is damn cute.. wahaha.. the only reason i watched this drama is 许孟哲.. don't know why also.. the drama is quite average i think.. a lot of parts don't really link.. like in the beginning they were studying in high school and wearing uniforms.. but in the later part of the drama, they were studying in university all of a sudden and wearing plain clothes.. but they graduate in 3 months, exactly the same as stated in the beginning of the drama.. wierd isn't it..

went to sheena house ytd.. only me, myrin, lay ting and jia ying went.. i only know why carrie cannot make it as she had to work - selling chingay tickets.. and we met her at simei mrt station!! the world is really so small.. jia ying asked me to help her bring 2 more oranges to sheena's house.. the reason behind was damn stupid.. her maid had peeled finished the oranges for their family to eat and there was none left for visiting.. damn stupid and funny lah.. haha..

for the first 1 hour at her house, we watched the tv and ate bee hoon cooked by sheena's father.. and while sheena's father was giving out the red packets, sheena blurted out that we went to her house solely because of the red packets.. wah piang.. damn paiseh one lah.. didn't know how to react man.. omg.. thinking of it now is still so embarassing.. although my reason for going was the karaoke rather than the red packet but it was still so so soooo paiseh.. lend 食神 vcd to sheena.. also exchanged a t-shirt i've bought which i think i can wear but can't for a 格斗天王 soundtrack which sheena had two exact copies.. aha..

and for the next don't know how many hours, we sang karaoke at sheena's third floor.. at the start no one sang.. then, jia ying and me started choosing those wierd wierd oldies.. laugh till i almost peng man.. what 热情的沙漠, 卡门, 康定情歌 etc etc.. couldn't really remember the rest.. after this warm up and 自high session, we all finally started singing.. aha.. and then the most memorable song was 姐妹 which jia ying picked specially for us.. (感动man.. crying le.. but then i think she personally wanted to sing this song.. aha..) me, jia ying and sheena were damn high lah.. treated the song like a personal concert or something like that.. keep shouting "把你的手借给我!!", "后面的大声一点!!" and i think in the middle of the song, i got hit by something (if i remember correctly) and i said i was hit by the light stick.. damn stupid.. shouting and laughing at the same time.. and this song takes so long to end.. keep repeating "你是我的姐妹,你是我的baby" all was waiting for it to stop so that we can finally stop laughing.. but it seems to take forever.. oh!! and throughout the song, layting and myrin were as cool as ever.. making the three of us look even more idiotic..

started to play blackjack with 10 cents for every turn.. myrin kept winning although she didn't know how to play.. this is called beginner's luck.. so overall, i think i won 20cents.. i think.. bought a pair of Giordano jeans from jia ying for 15 dollars (half price).. all because the pair of jeans expanded after washing.. and i miraculously could fit into that pair of jeans.. for goodness sake it was size 29!! i never had any size 29 pants in the past.. and we all left at 5.30 because jia ying wanted to play badminton at toa payoh.. aha..

met hui yong at bedok mrt station to go to san gu gu's house.. earlier on, he was at suntec city to buy a wedding gift for his friend.. his friend got married at a 18 years old.. at first i thought it was a shotgun marriage.. but no.. it was all because the groom's grandfather was very sick.. so in order to 冲喜 the family need to have some happy event - the marriage.. a bit shocked when i hear this.. i've always thought this kind of thing only happen in the past.. didn't expect this to happen in this era.. is it really okay to get marry at a mere 18?? won't the bride regret?? never mind.. hope the grandfather gets well and wish the bride a happy and blissful wedding!!

speaking of marriage.. some particular memory just appeared in my mind.. thought i had already let it go.. maybe that is the purpose of memories.. you just can't forget them.. and when something trigger your brain, these memories will just appear vividly in your mind.. ahaha.. suan le.. it's all over..

on the way to san gu gu's house in a taxi, we passed by tanah merah mrt station.. which meant that i had took a mrt ride from tanah merah mrt station to bedok mrt station and then took a taxi ride back to tanah merah station again.. wasting money man.. and this happened because i never went there by public transport before.. hai.. suan le..

upon reaching, saw my sister, wen xin and davinna singing in the living room.. and they asked me to sing!! i just came back from singing and my throat was already bursting.. but i still sang in the end.. and for duno what reason.. there were a lot of unfamiliar faces this year.. me and ah yong thought we had entered the wrong house in the beginning.. and also, this year there was no lion dance item.. maybe we had missed it as we were quite late.. maybe..

we reached home at 12.. it was counted quite early.. maybe we had nothing to do there.. zhi qian had went off earlier cuz we girls were occupied with singing.. and hui zhen was not there.. passed by the new underground expressway on the way home.. finally got the chance to do so.. kept bugging my father to drive me through the new expressway but he always didn't have the chance to do so... so i was quite happy throughout the ride.. aha.. crazy fella..

felt hungry when i reached home.. so i went to mac to buy something to eat at 1 am.. the road was damn dark and quiet man.. so in order to boost my confidence in walking the whole stretch of road, i plugged in my earphones and dash throughout the road.. and then i watched 欢喜来斗阵 till 4am.. i think i am really crazy..

thought i will be checking my emails for this night.. but i've found my set of princess hours and i am currently re-watching it right now.. so my unread emails has increased to 1116 now.. must check it before going to work.. if not i think i will just delete everything.. and while typing this post, i got frightened by a small piece of black sponge.. thought it was a beetle or cockcroach.. omg.. scary.. so i will be watching videos for the rest of the holidays..

2008-02-13T04:06:00.000+08:00

omg.. just finished organising my music files in my laptop.. didn't realised i have so many songs, albums and singers unknown.. so to make my music more accessible, i 've renamed all those unknown songs.. of course there are some which i totally gave up le(some wierd cantonese songs).. don't even understand what they are singing.. so i just left them alone..

so.. u guys want more lollipops?? i'll give!! ahaha.. people must think i'm crazy.. giving out lollipops on my blog.. but nevermind lah.. cuz i really want to know the name of this song.. so the first one to guess this song will get a lollipop from me!! ahah..

saw this speedtyping thing at qixia's blog.. so since i have nothing to do, i went to try it.. like the number of words i typed man.. so it's all fated i like 5566.. haha.. no link..

56 words

Touch Typing

so for the rest of the day, i will be reformating my mp3!! cuz there is so much repeated songs -- results of synchronising and then changing the folder name and then synchronising the mp3 again.. damn irritated when you hear the songs twice in a row although you are listening in a shuffle all mode.. more work to be done!! and i will not sleep till the night.. this is to get my body clock adjusted.. cuz i'm slping earlier and earlier!! from 2-3am to 4,5,6 am!! what is this?!?! so i will make my self damn tired and then sleep early and wake up early for the rest of the holidays!! i'm so motivated for this particular holiday.. don't know why also.. maybe this is the process of growing up?? whatever.. just hope this holiday is not wasted!!

2008-02-11T17:49:00.000+08:00

仁甫singing 难以抗拒你容颜.. only a small part.. this is what i mean by 实力派偶像歌手.. 天籁!!

2008-02-11T17:36:00.000+08:00

sending belated wishes to shaun, myrin and jackie!! paiseh for being late!!

02.02.2008

06.02.2008

08.02.2008

2008-02-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

ahaha.. damn long nv blog le.. reali very busy and tired for the past week.. (excuses nia lah.. hehe..) so i shall just list all activities in chronological order.. starting from the day after our exams..

01.02.2008..
went shopping @ far east, wisma atrium and takashimaya with jia ying and sheena.. why only the three of us?? because myrin pang seh us.. haha.. kidding lah..
after shopping with jia ying and sheena, met up with ming sheng, addison and hui ling @ amk hub to buy shaun's present and we shopped till all the shops are almost closed due to the fact that we meet up at 8pm.. so in the end we bought a pair of sunglasses and an over-sized shirt(in my opinion).. and then we proceed to shaun's house to pass him his bdae's present.. of course, we spent the rest of the time crapping about what had happened in sec 1 and 2 life.. we keep repeating the same thing over and over again whenever we are reminscing the past.. but never once did all these crap fail to make us laugh.. haha.. and we stayed till 12.30..

02.02.2008
reunion dinner with my grandmother!! (mother's side) couldn't go to the beatbox competition because of this.. and i've found out that ren fu and xie zhi sang xin ru dao ge LIVE.. haiz.. suan le.. it's all fate.. after reaching home, found out that wen xin(my cousin) wasn't allowed to go to the autograph session.. because of the reunion dinner (father's side).. and my auntie asked me not to go.. and of course.. none of her words entered my mind cause i was determined to go already(after missing the beatbox event)!! so i didn't care at all..

packed my room till 6am in the morning..the process was really horrendous.. at ard 4 am, a beetle appeared!! and i stared at the beetle for 15 MINUTES!! i was really crazy man.. realised i can't stand there for another 15 minutes so i find a box hoping to cover it so that it won't fly away.. aimed at the beetle and threw the box.. but my aiming was bad and it landed next to the beetle.. and i seriously think the beetle was blind.. cuz it walked around the box before continuing its way.. aha..

03.02.2008
woke up at 12 plus and chionged to 5566's autograph session.. sheena was already there lah.. and since i was alone she asked me to join her.. hesitated at first.. buden really a bit scary to queue alone cuz i didn't even know who was the last one.. the queue was a bit luan.. finally get to see them at ard 5.15.. THEY WERE DAMN SHUAI!! 白马王子.. aha.. after singing and dancing and answering questions, the autograph session finally starts.. the first to sign was shao wei, xie zhi, meng zhe and ren fu.. and when i finally got to step onto the stage, there was such a huge gap between me and sheena who's in front of me.. the 工作人员asked me to quickly walk in order to narrow the gap.. in the end i never even got to see xie zhi and meng zhe.. only shao wei and ren fu.. but the gap appeared because we each had 2 albums to sign and they thought we had one.. so because of this, my album was at the begininng of the table while i was at the end of the table with ren fu in front of me!! so i stood in front of him while he signed 4 albums.. omg.. so even though this time round i never got to see meng zhe and xiezhi and i never talk to them again i was damn happy!! ahaha..

after 5566-ing, meet up with my sister and chiong-ed home for reunion dinner.. don't really remember the events that happened after that.. my memories only ended at the point i stepped down the stage.. aha..

04.02.2008
met up with addison and hui ling at amk hub.. also met with maggie for some reason.. haha.. but in the end we went to s11 to eat instead.. nothing happened much lah.. haha..

05.02.2008
celebrate myrin and jackie's birthday at marina square.. ate at seoul garden cuz that was myrin's favourite!! after eating, we stoned for qutie a bit of time thinking of the next event.. after discussing, we decided to watch 27 dresses.. laughing all the way.. haha.. after everything, went to bishan junction 8.. saw yong rui, kian song, mayer and qing yuan there.. they were having their class dinner..

06.02.2008
went to cut my hair in the afternoon.. and it looked like i never went for a hair cut.. haha.. cuz i was thinking of re-bonding my hair.. couldn't cut it too short or too bao.. so what ever lah.. think i really wasted the money.. haha..

and it's new year time!! played mahjong on chu yi and er.. didn't really count whether i lose or not.. so what ever..

so this year's new year wasn't really happy for some reasons.. and really sorry to those who came my house on chu san.. hui ling, qi xia, huang yun, shu min, yong rui, kian song, wei zhi, ming sheng, wei xiong.. didn't expect my relatives to come and spoil the fun.. don't feel like elaborating..
and we went to watch ah long pte ltd.. we include me, wei xiong, hui ling, shu min, qi xia and addison.. bc addison.. went for the movie and never came to my house.. bc.. i was laughing throughout the movie buden the plot really quite stupid.. nan guai newspaper gave it 1 star nia.. so go watch a movie if you want to laugh and not a good story plot..

okay.. this post a bit long.. please bear with me.. its a collection of a week activities.. haha.. and for the lollipop, it goes to both sheena and carrie!! ahaha.. and please do watch 欢喜来斗阵!! It's really damn funny.. haha..

2008-01-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

OH YEAH!! EXAMS ARE OVER!!
aha.. accounts was disastrous.. really cannot make it man.. wad weird questions they ask.. how would i know the disrepancies between the two accounts.. we never even did anything similar to that at all.. other questions were also killer.. aha..

AND IT'S HOLIDAY TIME!!

list of things to to do during the holidays..

pack my room
cut my hair
reformat my mp3
clear my laptop's C drive
buy new clothing for new year
buy new bag??
buy new shoe??
watch 樱野三加一
watch 东方之珠
watch 食神
watch 魔剑生死棋
watch 欢迎来斗阵
watch 5566!!

okae.. seriously.. i cannot think of anything that is meaningful to do in the holidays.. i think i will be slouching on my sofa with my laptop and watch all the shows for the whole month.. aha.. luckily i will be working from march onwards.. if not 2 months of doing nothing but watch television would also be great.. haha..

my father finally bought something which is meaningful.. a new fridge.. aha.. finally can get rid of the fridge which melts the ice cream we bought.. the noise it made every night.. i don't mind if the noise it made was pleasing to the ear.. but the noise is very creepy especially in the wee hours of the night.. so quite happy at the new fridge.. but i don't really like the design though.. it's the upper and lower door that kind.. maybe i'm used to those left and right door..

报应啊报应.. teased jia ying for having a pimple on her nose sometime ago.. and now i have one too.. retribution man..

shao wei's new show quite funny man.. although not 偶像剧 but 连续剧.. buden really quite funny.. haha..

will be changing my blog's song soon.. guess the song correctly and you'll get a lollipop from me!! first-come-first basis.. haha..

2008-01-31T21:59:00.000+08:00

5566 version of hasayaki!! and it's live!! terribly nice man..

2008-01-30T22:28:00.000+08:00

1 PAPER LEFT TO GO!!
GAMBATE!!

2008-01-30T01:40:00.000+08:00

i tried to be funny and search for blurzgal on msn.. and the search results are all the comments i've wrote on youtube's videos and ren fu blog.. haha.. so damn bai chi..

and i've also found 2e2's forum which is currently out of use.. we didn't really use that for any purpose.. really just crapping.. and after reading some of the posts, i started crying.. i don't know why.. the tears just flow down automatically.. and the posts i read was where we had a discussion on who's going to play bball and at where.. haha.. stupid..

but i was really sad.. sad at why we had to part? sad at all the gone memories.. sad at a lot and a lot of things..

at the same time i am also happy.. happy that each of us had grown up.. happy that we had memories of each other.. happy at a lot and a lot of things..

simple things does touch the heart.. don't they??

okae.. i better stop now.. if not i'll start crying again..

e2' 03/04 rocks forever..

2008-01-30T00:27:00.000+08:00

econs really dead meat le.. hope i don't forward the module jiu sufficient enough le..

and before i went for my economics exam, my calculator was spoilt.. omg.. luckily found out in time.. if not, i will be bringing a spoilt calculator to the examination centre.. which is very stupid.. so went to buy a calculator at popular.. took me about 5 minutes to find it lah.. and i was rushing for the exam.. it was already 12.20 when i found the calculator and we are meeting at 1.15.. so i chiong to the counter and took out a $50 note and my popular card.. upon seeing my $50 note, the cashier asked me whether i have smaller notes or nets.. i said no and that i only have a $50 note.. she started explaining to me that not she don't want to give me the change but she really don't have the change for me and her colleague is queueing at the bank to change into smaller notes.. she sounds as if i'm trying to make her life difficult by giving her a big note.. after she finally explained finish, she asked me to come later and buy.. i was like WHAT!*#&^#$ i was already going to be late.. so i told her why not i change at other stores.. and u guessed what.. she suddenly became clever and scan at the second counter which have small change.. wasted time.. this whole process at the counter took more than 5 minutes!! so i really had to chiong to the mrt station.. luckily i reached on time.. if not i would ... ... ... ... be late.. haha..

as new year is reaching, we have to do spring cleaning.. of course, me and my sister only spring clean our room - which we had not yet do.. therefore my mother asked her friend to help her in our house's spring cleaning.. auntie sheida(i don't really know how to spell) was her name.. and then i think my grandmother thinks she is a part time maid or someone like that.. everytime my relatives call, she would say that my mother had qia (请 / hire) someone to help her in cleaning.. and i keep correcting her that the auntie was my mother's friend and not a helper.. she still don't get the idea till now.. luckily auntie sheida doesn't understand hokkien.. if not it would be damn awkward for her..

and where can u find such friend?? helps u to spring clean ur house which she doesn't even visit 5 times per year?? good friend are hard to come by man.. must ask my mother to treasure her.. haha..

loaned my 5566 cd to wen jun's sister.. hope she does treat it carefully..

STUDYING TIME!!

2008-01-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

OMG!! i feel like dying..

ECONS SUCKS LIKE HELL!!

2008-01-27T17:00:00.000+08:00

its 5pm and i had not yet started my econs.. cuz in the morning went to the basketball court at blk 755 to celebrate yong rui's birthday.. they met at 9 while me and hui ling reached at about 11 plus plus.. haha.. cuz our main motive was not to play basketball so there was no point in going there early.. a total of 9 people were there.. me, hui ling, kian song, eugene, wei zhi, qing yuan, tool ann, sam and of course the birthday boy - yongrui.. quite pathetic arh.. before we reach the basket ball court, we went to four leaves to buy the birthday cake and cold storage to buy the plates and forks.. the cake name was chocolate obession if i remembered correctly.. yeah.. as said by its name, it was very chocolatety..

when we reach the basketball court, the guys kept asking me whether i applied blusher on my face.. they said my cheeks were very pinkish.. i oso duno the reason for my cheeks being so pinkish so i just said that i'm healthy - pink state of health?? is there this saying?? whatever..

and to cheng kian song.. I'M NOT MUTATING INTO A PIG OKAE!! just because my cheeks are pink doesn't = to me being a pig..

and oh yeah.. MY UNREAD EMAILS REACHED A TOTAL OF 1000!! here's the evidence of it!!

aha.. i'm crazy.. forgive me okae?? i'm dying for the end of the exams so that i can PLAY!!

but for now i shall study economics.. serious studying.. 加油!!

2008-01-27T00:46:00.000+08:00

oh yeah.. a day has passed.. and i have done nothing.. cuz today is my mother's birthday.. so after eating our lunch at northpoint's swensen's (my mother wanted to eat that..) the waitress's attitude was really bad man.. feel like walking out of that idiotic restaurant.. and of course i didn't do that.. i just didn't have the guts to do so lah.. aha..

so after lunch, me and my sister spent the rest of the afternoon to buy her bdae present.. she wanted to buy a handbag and i wanted to buy a necklace.. but in the end, we shopped all the way to espirit and bought her a coat(jacket/blazer.. whatever that was called) it was the last piece man.. thats the problem.. we cannot exchange for something else if the size doesn't fit.. we were damn scared that the jacket doesn't match my mother's size.. cuz it costs $49.90!! omg.. but we were already tired of shopping.. so we just bought it.. (unfilial daughters.. haha..)

we reach home at about 6.. my father bought a mahjong table and a fan!! the table was our house's fifth mahjong table and countless number of fans!! he really wastes a lot of money.. omg.. dun talk about him le.. better to talk about our family monthly potluck gathering which had just ended.. there was so much fried food!! after collecting the 4 pepper crabs ordered at blk 313, i still saw CHICKEN WINGS AND SATAY!! happy at the sight of them but not the quantity.. cuz the food just doesn't ends.. haiz.. and the leftovers will be my lunch and dinner for tomorrow..

played monopoly with my cousins and sister as we really had nothing to do.. and my luck was damn terrible lah.. it was either paying the bank money or going to jail whenever i picked up a chance or community chest card.. so in total, i went to jail 4 times!! And i had only $37 left.. IT'S $37 monopoly money!! all my cousins had more than $1000 and they were all laughing at me cuz a 50 dollar note was already more than the whole of my fortune.. thats not all!! for the last round (cuz my cousin had to leave earlier) i stepped into the position where it had 4 houses!! that was the highest rent to be given at that point of time - $975!! and i had only $100 plus left.. omg.. really damn suay.. suan le.. hope my luck in reality isn't that bad.. aha..

2008-01-27T00:30:00.000+08:00

it's 27th of january!!

happy birthday to yong rui and 阿姨!!

2008-01-27T00:29:00.000+08:00

and here's the newest mv of 5566 - 青鸟!! (short version only) finally found out that the english name of this song - blue bird was correct and not a translation error.. cuz the bird which appeared in the mv is blue in colour!! maybe they didn't use 蓝鸟 cuz it didn't sound so nice?? aha.. it really sounds wierd for a song name, doesn't it??

find the warm feeling it gave out similar to 守候's.. enjoy!!

2008-01-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

STATS IS OVER!! regret that never spend enough time to study for stats.. suan le.. like i can turn back the clock.. so the next exam would be economics.. i really think i should study now instead of playing stupid games at http://www.shockwave.com/ or http://www.miniclips.com/.. aha..

A man's potential would be released when facing great dangers.. so maybe in order for me to release my potential in scoring A's for the exams, i probably need someone to scare the wits out of me!! or if anyone needs me to scare them, i will not hesitate to oblige!!

omg!! xu feng is back!! omg.. they finally see each other.. he's cute!! aha.. acting like a flower eater.. haha.. this show is really very abrupt.. everything happens so fast.. aha..

tml is my mother's bdae.. and i have no idea what to buy.. so hope i can dream of my mother's gift tonight and buy tml..

oh yeah.. thanks to big butt for help me check my seat number.. save me from the embarrassment of asking the lecturer..

6 more days and everything will be OVER!!

2008-01-25T04:06:00.000+08:00

its 4.06 am now.. and in another 10 more hours i will be having my statistics test.. and why am i not sleeping?? cuz i need to print out the past year papers for stats..

okae.. actualli the main reason is because i had forgotten to watch 超级星光大道earlier on.. and i'm watching the 3-5am show.. i really think i am crazy.. ahah..

i confirm plus chop the results this time now will be very very very not high.. ahah.. so if i really did well, it shows that watching more tv = getting better results..

林宥嘉rocks!! love the way he sings.. love the way he put his emotions into every word he sings.. can't wait for his album!!

and my reunion dinner doesn't clash with the beat boxing competition.. BUT.. it clashes with the autograph session.. 5PM @ BISHAN JUNCTION!! think will be like last time where only like 1000 people will go.. so i think should end quite fast.. (although i really want them to end quite late as that means that they are still as popular as ever..) nvm.. talk about them after the exams..

hope i can go for both the competition and autograph session..

gd luck for everyone's stats exams!!

2008-01-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO ADDISON NEO JUN WEI!!

this picture is specially for YOU!! aha.. hope you like this!! =p

wish you a happy birthday on the last minute of your birthday!!

2008-01-23T20:58:00.000+08:00

成长应该是一件美好的过程吧..
为什么它却让我感到害怕和不安??

okae.. fom paper finally ended.. my nightmare.. there's one question in the paper which asked about whats the distribution strategy used by some company.. and i wrote direct.. OMG.. how wrong can i be!! i think is supposed to be intensive /extensive or something like that.. was totally crapping throughout the whole paper.. and i think my definitions are all wrong.. hai..

and of course, this is not yet the worst.. cause there is still stats,econs and accounts.. wahaha.. i wonder how i finish my stats by tomorrow.. stop procastinating!!

while on the mrt today, saw an auntie digging her nose as if she was alone.. it was so so so so disgusting!! after digging her left nostril, she put down her finger and not even after 10 seconds, she proceeded to her right nostril!! you must be thinking why of everything do i notice her digging of her nose.. i just couldn't help it.. cuz that was the only safe direction i can look at.. infront of me is a guy and when u look face to face with someone, it's just so awkward!! i have no choice but to turn my head to the other direction.. and then i see this disgusting sight.. What luck i have..

enough of this disgusting talk.. something very important!! the date of my family's reunion dinner and the date of 5566 guest performance at the beatboxing competition CLASH with each other!! what the heck.. i need to inform my mother and cousin and discuss whether to go for the performance or reunion dinner.. of cuz my mind is set on going for the performance although they are only guests performers.. but this is really a rare chance!! so now the decision lies with my mother.. whether she allows..

so right now i must empty my brain and fill it up with stats formulaes and functions of SPSS..

2008-01-22T01:06:00.000+08:00

studying FOM right now.. I WILL NOT SLEEP TILL I HAVE FINISHED UP TILL THE PRICING CHAPTER!!

can't concentrate on fom.. the clock on my wall reminded me that it is already tuesday and i have not change my blog song.. aha.. i'm so lame.. so i'm changing right now!!

the most touching song in the whole album - 我的背后!!

2008-01-20T17:15:00.000+08:00

oh great.. for what so ever reason, my flash player doesn't seems to work.. can't see the tian cai chong chong on tudou.. luckily, there's youtube.. aha.. laugh like hell.. be prepared if you watch it.. aha..

2008-01-19T16:02:00.000+08:00

i need CONCENTRATION & DETERMNINATION!!

2008-01-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO SHU MIN AND WEISHUN!!

you can now go clubbing and 考for your driving licence le..

Hope shu min has all A's for A'levels!!

Hope wei shun has gpa of 4.0!!

May all your wishes come true!!

2008-01-16T21:43:00.000+08:00

omg.. today's 无间道不道 guest was not 5566.. either next week or tomorrow.. ahah.. what fei hua.. was late again when meeting with carrie, jia ying and lay ting.. paiseh arh..

unproductive day again.. read 3.5 chapters of fom.. still have 9-10 chapters more.. how i memorise all the definitions?? sombody help me!! omg..

congratulations to carrie having found her cip form in 2 different magazines!! haha.. And also thank you for helping me and sheena pass the forms to mrs sharon tan!!

and my mother is hooked onto 微笑pasta.. lol..

jialat.. my pimples are popping up liao.. hai..

6more days to exams!! PERSEVERE!!

2008-01-16T21:42:00.000+08:00

5566's latest MV - 漫游中国!!

haiz.. find the mv quite alike to fei lun hai's one.. hope this doesn't become the topic whereby they are being accused of copying them.. Cuz they weren't the ones who filmed the mv!! 5566 加油!!

okae lah.. after seeing their mv, onli the part where they use colours alike nia.. haha..

2008-01-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

okae.. sorry to jia ying, myrin and carrie for not meeting them today.. (maybe there's someone else..) cuz i was not feeling well.. hai.. reali very sorry.. and in the end, because i was not feeling well, i did not study at all.. jialal!! I REALLY MUST START TO PIA LIAO!!

something happened just now at home and my mother was like screaming off at her lungs ( i seriously think that all the alveoli inside were using all their strength in order to make my mother scream like that..) at that point of time, i was just awake after a short nap and she just scold and scold and scold for no apparent reason.. okae.. there was a reason.. i never helped her cook rice because i was asleep.. that was the 导火线 of her pointless and meaningless scoldings.. she also keep repeating "what will happen if i die? nobody will do the housework!!" as a first timer listening to this, you might be really afraid.. but that was the millionth time i've ever heard that so you can say that i was numb to it..

but that made me think of another issue.. will i move out of the house once i am independent financially?? i would say 85% yes.. maybe of the influence of drama whereby the main lead always stay alone.. maybe i just want a life that nobody will nag or care what time i reach home; what time i bath; what time i go to bed; what time should i do this or what time should i do that.. that is really quite irritating.. isn't it?? and living alone gives you the freedom of inviting friends to your house without the surprise visit of some relatives!!

but there's still the 25 percentage of a no as i just can't imagine just me living in a house.. i will definitely be even more paranoid.. and my electricity bills will shoot up.. maybe you know.. and maybe you don't know.. I SLEEP WITH THE LIGHTS ON!! not the small night light.. is the normal lights you will switch on during normal day.. aha.. my doors and windows must also be closed.. also, there must not be a seen mirror in the room.. (it's getting creepier as i type) therefore, if i sleep alone, i think my whole house's lights need to be switched on..
so maybe i might not live alone.. haha..

thinking of the future really made me scared though.. thats because i have yet to decide what i want to be.. in the first place, i don't know whether putting marketing as first option is a good choice or not.. hai..

so now, lets think of the past.. Mon, we had the written test for CRS.. i chose the topic "do you agree that mobile technology deteriorates human relationships?" i disagreed based on 1 intro, 3 stupid reasons, 1 counter-argument and a conclusion.. [JACKIE DID NOT WRITE THE COUNTER-ARGUMENT!! haha.. hope he doesn't read this!!] at first, i included msn into my essay.. but fortunately, with my intelligence =), i found out that the question only focuses on MOBILE TECHNOLOGY.. lucky me.. i think i wrote a lot as compared to the others.. die.. scared the more i wrote the more mistakes i made.. nvm.. the paper was already handed in..

after the CRS paper, we went to fom tutorial.. i was actually intending not to go as i had forgotten about this particular tutorial and did not prepare nor bring the needed materials along.. what i have was only a block of foolscap and my pencilcase.. but then since the whole clique went, there was no reason for me not going.. luckily i went there.. if not, i would have missed the last tutorial with mr lee chong hwa.. he's quite an interesting lecturer with his endless stories of his friends or clients.. i really wonder how he remembered all his stories.. okae.. he can be quite boring at times and will call you up unexpectedly to read a passage / question or to answer the question.. and i'm always stunned whenever he calls my name.. okae.. nvm.. so overall he's quite a good lecturer..

it started to rain heavily while going home.. HEAVILY.. so when the train was one stop before sembawang, i was like hesitating whether to alight at sembawang or yishun.. cuz if i alighted at yishun i would not get drenched by boarding bus no. 859. . when the train stopped at sembawang, i had already alighted the train but i could barely see my block of flat with the heavy rain.. so i u-turned and sat back in the train..

saw jin chao in north point and a sec4 classmate.. but i really couldn't remember his name!! so did not greet him at all.. STM.. and in popular, i was browsing through those 2008 notebook planner.. saw one which i liked.. black in colour!! I briefly flipped through its pages, making sure there was no torn pages, and proceed to the counter.. didn't realise that it costs $9.15!! it was like omg.. buden i really quite of liked it so bought it despite its price..

here's a picture of it.. ORDINARY!! haha..

going to change my blog the song nxt mon.. no prizes for guessing what song i will put up.. yeah.. definitely a 5566 song.. ahaha..

2008-01-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

a video with xu meng zhe and sun xie zhi cooking.. their conversation are always so funny.. and if you happen to have cable tv subscription, this is going to air this sunday on channel 56.. and also, tml evening at 8pm 5566 would be guests in 无间道不道.. sure to be damn funny.. hope it de-stress you.. but don't be addicted okae?? ahha..

Part 1..

Part 2..

2008-01-13T18:32:00.000+08:00

Okae.. Since i can't study at all, i might as well blog.. been unproductive for the day after staring the accounts book for ages.. i totally don't understand all the chapters - result of ponning lectures after lectures and tutorials after tutorials.. haiz.. cannot remain this way.. must really start to pia all the way le.. after the exams, i will have 2 and a half weeks of holidays.. perhaps thinking in this way might help me to study more efficiently..

23.01.2008 - Fundamentals of Marketing
25.01.2008 - Statistics of Business
29.01.2008 - Economics
31.01.2008 - Accounts

Listing all exams out made them lesser!! (okay, i'm counselling myself)
oh yah.. there's still the CRS paper tomorrow.. Shit.. It's been ages since i had wrote an essay.. And somemore, an argumentative one.. Someone please prepare a coffin for me on the first day of february..

told myrin my second post would be on 5566.. but if i really write on them, i would be even lagging behind time as i would write and write and write for as long as i can.. haha.. maybe i would write on them before i entered the coffin..

monday's crab eating session really burned my whole wallet.. luckily there's only one edition of 5566 album for now.. If not i really do not know how am i going to make $$ appear in my wallet.. in total we spent exactly $200.00 for 7 people.. $28.50 for each.. the 3 crabs we ate already cost $120++ and everyone was like damn full.. damn.. and we couldn't do the belated christmas exchange gift as me and jackie had forgotten to bring the present.. paiseh..

some pictures for the day..

the seven of us

where are my eyes?!?!

the 3 crabs we ate

den tues we had our exchange gift session.. got a bar of passion fruit soap from body shop bought by jiaying which have not yet been used.. aha.. and myrin got my yes or no answering bottle gift!! i was so scared that the gift was too lame.. but should be okay lah.. i think..

ei8ht and our gifts!!

me and the bar of soap

myrin and my "yes-no" gift

better stop and study now!!

加油！！

my FIRST post!!

2008-01-13T03:46:00.000+08:00

OMG!! My blog is finally finalised!! Buden i think is quite alike to jia ying's one.. Cuz i used hers as an example for mine.. Ahaa.. Been slacking for the past few days and there is onli 10++ days left for the big day.. Haiz.. Damn sian..

Hope i will study when i wake up 6 hours later..

Been listening to 5566 songs these few days.. Really missed their songs a lot.. Duno whether should go for the beatbox thingy notx.. Someone please teach me what to do!! Spend the $68 or spend the money on other things.. Sounds like econs - opportunity cost.. Aha.. Gone bersek thinking of studying..

Okae.. I better go sleep.. Haha..